Friday, January 23, 2009
everything is so fucked up in my life. be it personal or known to others, im beginning to lose fAith and confidence in watever i do. 54 days have past since then, and don come ask bout wat isit. go to school. have to act lyk nth happen, try to be as happy as possible, just to put my useless life and feelings behind me, im getting sick of it, getting of all the waiting. but i juz cant stop tinkin bout it. plyed vball and bball are hard as i could to get that out of my head, germin say tat im fucking silly, zion say im fucking stupid, but wat can i say, choosing between frens and my trust, i really don noe wat to choose. daryl is pissing me off every single day,
EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY! tinkin tat he could do anyting juz bcause of his position? juz because i treasure frens over dignity? but i can only juz lay back and keep all these away. Sometimes i tink back on wat she said...i am juz too trusting to people i guess...well i guess i am. i could easily piss people off, making them irritated, agitated, fucked up, and i mysef don even noe bout it. even if i knew, would it make any difference??
SORRY IS NOTHING THESE DAYS, APOLOGIZING IS TRASH, FORGIVING IS HISTORY. tink im joking? im not. 3 weeks, nver slept for 8 days. tot of these tot of tat, there mayb someone else for her, someone better, more caring towards her than anyone else would. what you told me, you are telling me that you are wasting my fucking tym on you, i tell you, it s not.
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